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tama bang eto kalabasan ng surbey na toh?ang dami naman pagkain jan eto pa?hahahahaha nang iinsulto ata!okay lang m still posting it…maganda naman ang comment so tolerable…hahahaha
When I’m feeling like there’s no love coming to me, and I have no love to give. When I’m feeling separated from the world, and cut off from myself. When I’m feeling annoyed by every little thing, because I’m not getting what I want. I’ll remember that there is an infinite amount of love available to me. And I’ll see it in you. I’ll remember that I am complete within myself, so I’ll never have to look to you to complete me. And most of all, I’ll remember that everything I really need I already have, and whatever I don’t have will come to me when I’m ready to receive it. (Will & grace)
A Poem for us…
I shave my legs,
I sit down to pee.
And I can justify
Any shopping spree.
Don’t go to a barber,
but a beauty salon.
I can get a massage
without a hard-on.
I can balance the checkbook,
I can pump my own gas.
Can talk to my friends,
about the size of my ass.
My beauty’s a masterpiece,
and yes, it takes long.
At least I can admit,
to others when I’m wrong.
I don’t drive in circles,
at any cost.
And I don’t have a problem,
admitting I’m lost.
I never forget,
an important date.
You just gotta deal with it,
I’m usually late.
I don’t watch movies,
with lots of gore.
Don’t need instant replay,
to remember the score.
I won’t lose my hair,
I don’t get jock itch.
And just cause I’m assertive,
Don’t call me a bitch.
Don’t say to your friends,
Oh yeah,I can get her.
In your dreams,my dear,
I can do better!
Flowers are okay,
But jewelry’s best.
Look at me you idiot…
Not at my chest????
I don’t have a problem,
with expressing my feelings.
I know when you’re lying,
You look at the ceiling.
Don’t call me a GIRL,
a BABE or a CHICK…
I am a WOMAN.
Get it?,you DICK!?!
Love is a Vacuum. It sucks you in and no matter how much you try to hold on to something, you’ll find yourself being pulled into it and then after that, you can’t find your way out. Actually, love is more like a lawn mower to grass. The grass is busy minding it’s own business, being happy and green and all of a sudden this larger than life thing just comes rushing towards them at full speed and before they can do anything, it runs over them and shreds them to bits.
I have two friends who have been together for God knows how long (WARNING! If this is YOU or if YOU know this people…DO NOT REACT!ü). They started dating 6 years ago, the girl was about 15 and the guy was 18. I was talking to her earlier this evening. And we were kind or remeniscing the old times. The times where the guy would wait for her ouside her high school every afternoon to pick her up, how she took him for granted, how the world rotated and things changed. They’ve fought and reconciled for like ten thousand times and breaking up and getting back together is an old story. I remember asking her what she feels, if she thinks that this guy is already "THE ONE". She smiled at me and said Yes.
She said she never intended to fall in love with him and that she never saw it coming. He never really liked her, and it was really her cousin who liked him. She was just the trusty "Tulay", calling his love interest for him and talking the girl out of her mom so HE can talk to HER. They just live bout 6 houses away from each other, they were together alomost everday even on Sundays at church, they spend summers together in summer camps and they’re just normal friends…nothing more than that. Months passed by, leaves fell down and the season changed. She can’t vividly remember what exactly happened, but she said it just happened. Thinking about it now, HE was never really her ideal guy. She dreamt of a larger than life love story and hoped for a too good to be true prince charming to make her sush.
You can never really choose who to love, whats great about having friends as your partner is the fact that you know that this person will love you regardless of who and what you really are. That inspite of knowing how much of a blabber mouth or airhead he is, or how arte and vain she is, you’re still proud to tell the whole world that he/she is yours that it would make you proud because this person is with you and that perhaps it will make you love him/her more inspite of it all. There was this one thing my friend said that made me smile "I cannot change him anymore, we have been through so much that i have learned to LOVE him because of his bad habits. Admit it or not, i know he can’t live with out me…and i don’t think i can ever live with out him…" (YES this words came out from her mouth…ü)
They say that its odd how we set qualifications on someone we want to love, how we wanted things to turn out well and how much we wanted this person to be perfect…but its funy how the poeple we love will always be an excemption. And if there’s one thing i learned about all this is that, the perfect man or woman of our dreams live in our dreams, absolute reality could be so much more fun than fantasy. That we have to settle on whoever somes close…SOMEONE not perfect but REAL. And that when your in love with the right person, you just feel like your always in cloud nine, it felt like lying down in a bed of roses and it will always feel like the universe is consipiring with you. Maybe not just yet only because that person hasn’t arrived yet, but someday when your not even looking…they FIND you…
You sit there in my shadows
And you call it your relief
Don’t be the one with bad eyes for
The things that I could see
Don’t give me that
The darkness has no armor
Need protection from the air
High hopes through time passing
When I see I want you there
Maglilinis ako ng aking kwarto
Na punong-puno ng galit at damit
Mga bagay na hindi ko na kailangan
Nakaraang hindi na pwedeng pagpaliban..
Oohh ooh..
Mga liham ng nilihim kong pag-ibig
At litrato ng kahapong maligalig
Dahan-dahan kong inipon
Ngunit ngayo’y kailangan nang itapon..
Chorus
Di ko na kayang mabuhay sa kahapon
Kaya mula ngayon, mula ngayon..
May jacket mong nabubulok sa sulok
Na inaalikabok na sa lungkot
May panyong ilang ulit nang niluhaan
Isang patak sa bawat beses na tayo’y nasaktan..
Repeat Chorus
Mula ngayon
Ala-ala ng lumuluhang kahapon
Dahan-dahan ko na ring kinakahon
Natagpuan ko na ang tunay kong ligaya
Lumabas ako ng kwarto’t naroon siya..
Magpapaalam na sayo ang aking kwarto (4x)
Magpapaalam na sayo (3x)
Magpapaalam na sayo ang aking kwarto
i wanted to just erase you out of my life (hence my fascination with eternal sunshine of the spotless mind) but that doesn’t seem fair."&"though i may still need a little convincing on that "happily ever after" part, at least you’ve got the "once upon a time" covered already…" these words HIT on me HARD…this is a letter written by a "FRIEND" for her "FRIEND" (ha!). and i must admit it, IT ROCKED my world.
LETTER TO A FRIEND
it was supposed to express how i felt for him. i don’t know why i made it. i just felt like doing so. i didn’t expect that after writing the letter, i would find closure… sometimes it’s really better if you acknowledge how you feel so you can let go…
She says that love is for fools that fall behind
And I’m somewhere in between
I never really know
A killer from a savior
Till I break at the bend
We’re here and now, but will we ever be again
Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again
i grew up to the stories of cinderella and sleeping beauty but the concept of a fairytale romance and happy ever afters were never sold to me. yup, even as a kid, i was already jaded. more than two decades later, with my own and everyone else’s experiences to back up my claim, i strongly lived on the belief that love is overrated and as the song goes, all that shimmers is sure to fade away. i didn’t believe in true love. i found happiness with my friends and thought that that was the greatest form of happiness. i built a wall around my heart and made sure it was strong enough to endure even the slyest attempt to get to it. i considered it very formidable. i’ve entered and left relationships without even shedding a tear. and even to the day when i found myself sharing to my friends that i think i have a crush on someone at work, i never anticipated i would find myself in the situation i am in right now.
Suddenly in my life
There’s something that’s got me mystified and I
Cannot fight it but I can try
To keep the wonder of it alive
i could have sworn a friendship can never develop into anything deeper and if ever it does, i feel that the people involved are just forcing the issue. i always laugh it off when my guy friends are suddenly making "da moves" because it just isn’t possible. friends are friends. like the movie says, there’s nothing like a good romance to ruin a perfect friendship. i thought that when you spend too much time together, the feeling of comfort is what people mistake as love and when friends finally realize that it wasn’t what they expected it to be, it’s too late. they not only lose the relationship but also the friendship. i also couldn’t believe that one person can have so much power over another person’s emotion, like a simple smile can be a huge source of happiness or a delayed text reply can ruin one whole day. i thought that we run our own lives and i wouldn’t be that weak to be subject by another to a rollercoaster of emotions. and most of all, i never believed i could ever be in love. but guess what? i was wrong on all three counts. yup, knowing you opened my eyes to the fact that i don’t know myself that well and that wall i was so proud of wasn’t as formidable as it seemed.
I don’t know where to go
I don’t know what to be
I don’t know how to change from being me
I don’t know what to say
Maybe another day
I’ll stop getting lost and find my way, home
All I know is gone…
i’m not expecting anything from you and i won’t do anything to mess up your relationship. if there’s one thing i’m sure won’t change about me is that i’d never go between any relationship, most especially one that’s as good as what you’ve got. call me crazy but i don’t even want whatever it is that i’m feeling. yes it has brought me to new heights of happiness, but at the same time, i’ve also never felt this weak and powerless before. i wanted to let go of it but i didn’t know how. i want to remain friends because it’s rare to come across a good friend who takes care of others the way you do but i’m afraid that if i stay close to you, it would only complicate this. i get affected by the smallest things like your cousin’s interrogation because i know he’s friends with your girlfriend and i don’t want her to get the impression that i’m moving in on you. i really hope you don’t think that either. it’s hard to determine where to draw the line because some people put malice on things that for me are innocent. i wanted to just erase you out of my life (hence my fascination with eternal sunshine of the spotless mind) but that doesn’t seem fair. i guess it was hard for me to handle this because everything i held on to came crumbling down. how do i figure out how to deal with love and hurt when those two things are foreign to me? i never actually considered that i would be subject to love and hurt, especially not at the same time.
There’s a lot of things I understand
And there’s a lot of things that I don’t want to know
But you’re the only face I recognize
It’s so damn sweet of you to look me in the eyes
It’s alright, I’m OK, I think God can explain
I believe I’m the same, I get carried away
but i’m doing better now and soon i know you and i will look back at this and laugh our hearts out about how drama i was and together we can try to figure out what in the world malfunctioned in my system that made me fall for you. right now, my money’s on the food you had cooked in pagudpud. i mean, after that, jun suddenly likes me and i’m suddenly crushing on you again. share mo naman yung gayuma mo! kidding aside, dude, thanks for making me feel human (now you know na why)… for making me feel that i could be vulnerable too… for making me realize that no matter how high or how strong you build that wall around your heart, love will get to you… for making me experience the happpiness that love brings… and most of all, for proving me wrong. love does exist, even within me. though i may still need a little convincing on that "happily ever after" part, at least you’ve got the "once upon a time" covered already.
enough with the drama… hopefully more good times to come.
This same friend and I have this never ending ‘argument’ or whatever you call it, weather there really is a thin line between friends. If there is such thing as ‘platonic’ love. According to her, there is no such sh*t and being the "hopeless" romanitc aka drama queen that I am, I told her that I have always believed that Friends will remain Friends. There are cases that the love grows deeper, only because this two people finally realized that their relationship needs to step a little farther than just being plain friends. And YES, there are cases that the feeling is not mutual, cases where the other gets bitter and jaded because he/she hates herself for falling in love with his/her best friend and by doing do, this person would feel like he/she has betrayed the TRUST bestowed upon him/her by the other person. But in the end, Friends will always be Friends, some fall in love, some fall out of love, some lets go because they have to and some remain friends regardless of what had happened in the past and or if they have a past.
I have always been comfortable with guys being one of the ’species’ I trust and bond with. I have tons of guy friends who’s in a relationship, and I have ones whom are single. And never in my entire exsistenc that I fell in love with a friend. I am someone whom you can actually put in any type of crowd and could still manage to get through no matter how. And I have always felt that having guys as buddies has made my life a lot colorful and fun, I am so close to this creatures that sometimes we would even sleep in the same bed, drink in the same glass or even eat using each other’s utensiles (this insitances happen only in time of crisis). Funny, how once someone thought this guy friend and I are married because we were so close, I was asking him if I smell all right, we find it really hilarious only because its crazy how people sometimes think. They put malice and make such a big deal out of something really stupid. Well yeah once fell in love with a guy friend but i fell in love before the friendship even begun.
And eventhough WE always end up sticking to each other’s own perceptions and theories, there are still moments. I still think about it at night, sometimes things would seem too vague for me to actually understand my own perceptions that I would suddenly be confuse. But then again, I have always been fascinated with couples who started out as friends. Only because it somehow feels right to fal in love with someone whom you know the pro’s and cons of. That regardless of how hot headed he can be or how arte you are, you would still be able to tell everyone that you are in love with each other. I have always hoped for something that ‘PERFECT’ and ‘MAGICAL’ to happen to me. But it felt like the Universe are just not conspiring with me, maybe because i have always been too dumb or stupid to choose whom to fall in love with. And maybe, JUST maybe this guy is just busy looking for me as well (and I’de like to believe in that for now).
A friend once told me that you don’t catch butterflies with a net. You wait patiently for it to come to you. If you’re lucky enough to have one, hold it in a way it could freely spread its wings. No matter how you want to keep them on your hand, you can’t. Butterflies have wings, they need to fly.
I don’t know what suddenly brought me into this ‘FRIENDSHIP&LOVE’ thoughts. So much for writing my first blog in friendster (good thing I have all the right to be dramatic in my other blog). =)
